Today is our anniversary.
Today we would have celebrated 15 years together officially.
He has been gone from me almost 2.
He was my first and only love.
I am posting this because I hope to find some peace by doing it.
Mike is gone, but I feel him every day
I think about him with every waking breath.
I hear his laughter in every echo of my mind.
I see him everywhere,
No matter how hard I have tried to erase the pain
In seeing him in everything, every day.
No matter how hard I have tried to change myself.
He is still with me, every step of the way.
His smiling eyes
So full of love.
They were windows to heaven.
They held me with adoration and hope.
They promised me an eternity of joy.
I miss those eyes.
I miss the intensity that comforted me.
I miss the Joy and rapture in them.
I miss the love.
I have loved very few men in my life.
My dad, who is gone from me as well.
And Mike.
I don't think I will ever love with the same intensity
Ever again.
So happy anniversary, my muirnin.
You will always be in my heart.
Forever.
Don't ever forget him.
ReplyDeleteHe will always be a part of who you are that makes you the beautiful creature you are.
i can only hope to be half of what he was for you.
Please, i need you to find me.
I am lost without you.
This made me cry. You have this way with words of getting your point across in the most beautiful way...I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm not sorry for all the time you had him. I don't even know you, but I'm happy that you had him, and sad that you lost him.
ReplyDeleteThanks for inspiring me. <3
I forgot our day. Until today, Veteran's Day.
ReplyDeleteNow I can't stop crying because I know it's because you are fading from me.
I miss you so much, but it would be unfair of me to say I am unhappy.
I love him so much,Mike.
I don't want you to fade.
I want to remember.
Forgive me.
Happy Anniversary my muirnin.
I won't forget.
My heart has room for both.